I learned that I could frame a door and window and chop down trees, and that a full swing with a hammer on a finger hurts like there's no tomorrow. I learned that no tarp could keep out the rain and snow. I did things I thought would be impossible to accomplish and that still feels amazing!
It's rare to be far enough away from humans to experience true silence, (it can paradoxically sound 'loud'), but I’ve been fortunate and have spent long periods mostly only hearing the sounds of nature and nothing man-made. It's a beautiful thing, and for me, as necessary to my survival as water and air. I find it regenerates my weary soul in so many ways. It also renews the kind of hope I need to wake up feeling inspired and able to embrace all that the universe will reveal to me each day.
All in all, it was a good year.
While "letting go" has been as much a part of my life as breathing, this year will see it reaching new levels. I’m also moving toward less judgment, more acceptance, more meditation, and more living in the moment. I know it sounds cliché and possibly all fluff, but being more fully present has huge health benefits in body, mind and spirit. I worry less, am less depressed, more optimistic, less stressed, and better able to feel the beauty in this world. There’s so much beauty when you slow down and take notice.
I want to focus on the good that’s out there in the coming year, and less about all that is wrong. I also want to focus on the love in my heart. I love my friends – virtual included – and adore my furry and human family.
I learned a long time ago to be kind to myself. As an artist that’s especially important, because if you fail to love yourself, and to believe in yourself, creativity has little chance of thriving. In a world where few understand how to be alone and happy at the same time, I am in the small minority who loves my own company. Being alone is not a lonely thing at all. I love my passions. I even like more about growing old than I dislike about it. With age has come more inner peace, calmness and confidence. I no longer wonder who I am or what I want out of life, or what I want to be when I grow up. I don’t feel confused about my path or why I’m here. I’ll be spending much less time on Facebook. I’ve even thought about giving up the online world altogether for an entire year, but I love to research, write and read so much, that I don’t think it’s the time. Balance is the key and I need more of that.
So, goodbye 2013 – you were a helluva ride -- and hello 2014. I welcome you with open arms.